Thursday 4/4/24 Travel day. I'm writing this after settling in at the hotel where I'm staying. When I left Chicago, it was snowing, and when I got off the plane in Fort Lauderdale, it was sunny. The temperature was in the 80s, and it was
Wednesday 3/4/24 The way I pack is so stupid. Yesterday, I got everything packed. Then, today, I was thinking about what I packed and how I packed it, and I decided I needed to do it all over again. Why can't I just pack it the way
Tuesday 2/1/24 I spent most of the day doing clinical work. During breaks, I picked up different things I'm going to need for the trip and packed. Top of mind: I've been thinking a lot about the Lacanian concept of the lying truth. This started
Monday 1/4/24 I will be traveling to Clinical Study Days later in the week, and I'm feeling pre-travel nervous energy accumulate, as it always does for me. The morning has been divided between clinical work (e.g., psychoanalytic sessions) and video calls with people to plan and
Everyday choices Everyday, there is so much stuff (books, podcasts, long-from articles and blog posts, films, audiobooks, comics, music, games, tv shows, etc.) I want to spend time absorbing. Every. Day. But time and my attention are not unlimited. Both are finite. So I’ve got to make choices about what gets
General Head-Noise 22/1/24 Starting The day is overcast. I look out the window and see the gray sky and the white snow. The contrast is pleasant and matches my emotional landscape. 7:14 am Up and moving…
General Head-Noise 21/2/24 General Head-Noise posts are started at the beginning of my day and updated throughout the day. The posts contain a semi-structured collection of thoughts, reflections, reactions, associations, and observations. There are far from fully formed / completely thought out ideas. Instead, they are ideas in an emergent state,
One Effect of Being an Analysand After being in analysis for years, I've experienced saying more and less than I intend. I've made slips, I've been arrogant, I've been overly deferential, so on and so forth. Even after several years of this, I'm still surprised when
A Note on Getting Older & Wasted Time Today is one of those days where I look at the books that I have on my shelves, and the pdf files on my computer's desktop, the ones I’ve read, and the ones that I have not read, and I feel a sort of weight—the weight
Making Sentences I've been writing every day for some time now. Be that as it may, I don't have a massive amount of writing done. The bit of text [https://www.surplusjouissance.com/something-went-wrong/] I sent out/posted about my experience of being a kid when the Challenger